Stac-ca-to

I live in the land of interruptions.

Four children age 6 (and a very important "3/4") and under = chaos never a dull moment. Someone always needs me. Right when I'm helping somebody else/preparing a meal/changing a diaper/picking up toys/folding laundry/using the restroom. Every. Time.

My life is staccato.

Stac-ca-to: "composed of or characterized by abruptly disconnected elements; disjointed..."

When I am in the midst of one thing...something/someone else demands my attention. Get started on (fill in the blank) and then (fill in the blank) forces me to redirect. Causes me to stop what I was doing and give attention elsewhere.

I rarely handle this with ease. My exterior may be calm, but my insides are raging "Ugh! Really? Why now?!". I just want everything to go how-I-want-it-to-go-when-I-want-it-to-go. Surely that's not asking too much.

And it's not just kids that are the source of these interruptions, you know. It's life. Just day to day life that can make me have to switch gears at the drop of a hat. All those things I can find myself in the midst of...well, they have an uncanny way of changing up on me quickly sometimes. 

Perhaps it's my vision that is the real problem here. Perhaps the staccato is more beautiful than I realize.





Perhaps what I see as an interruption is really a pause. 

Pause: "a temporary stop or rest, especially in speech or action..."

I get so easily wound up in myself...my lists, my tasks, my children, my house...it's all about M-E. 

Perhaps these pauses are not the intruding interruptions as my self-absorbed vision sees them. Perhaps they are wonderful gifts. Perhaps they are meant to draw me back to The One Who Loves Me. 

When I am in the middle of the "piranha hours" (4-6pm), trying to make dinner and keep the kids from squabbling there are frequent interruptions pauses. Getting Phoebe a drink. Watching Shiloh dance in the living room. Helping Deacon with a toy. Nursing Mercie. With each new interruption pause, it seems that I might never get done what I need to do. 

Choosing to see these moments as a pause frees me up from the burden of irritation. Frees me from feeling anxious.

A pause is brief. A pause is necessary.

I need to be constantly drawn back close to My Lord. What a precious gift these moments of pausing from my busyness can be! To say a prayer, to hum a praise, to remember that He is in all things, to rest from my hurried pace for one sweet moment at a time.

Yesterday morning there were a lot of pauses. It was a truly staccato start to our day. I pulled out of the driveway 25 minutes later than we should have to take Shiloh to school. At the end of our street this greeted me...because God is a master teacher, and always finds a way to make His point perfectly clear.

These trucks were collecting piles of branches that our neighbors (lovely people, by the way) had cut down. The truck on the left was grabbing the branches with a large claw, swinging them through the air and dropping them in the back of the truck on the right. They were in no hurry at all...as they completely blocked the road and our only way to exit the cul-de-sac.

My kids were in awe at the big trucks. They ooohed and aaahed as the massive claw grabbed tree limbs. They loved every minute of it. All five minutes of it, to be precise. 

My first reaction to this scenario was frustration; we were already late for crying out loud. But my heart quickly softened as I heard my children's sheer enjoyment. 

This pause was exactly what I needed in the midst of my hurried morning.

My impatience melted as we paused (quite literally this time) in the middle of the street. My children and I watched the trucks and had a chat about teamwork...amazed at the way these large trucks and half dozen men were working together. The claw truck (I have no idea what it's really called, please forgive me) was strong and specially skilled to grab the piles of branches...but this truck had nowhere to put what it had picked up. It needed the help of the big dumpster truck to complete the task of cleaning up. The dumpster truck (I know, you're super impressed with my wording) had a huge bed with plenty of room to hold the branches...but it had no way to pick up the load. It needed the help of the other truck. {Cue the "Wonder Pets" theme song..."What's going to work? Teamwork!"}

When the trucks finished their work and slowly drove on down the road we were finally freed to continue on our way. We were delayed by this pause, but what a gift it was. We all sweetened up a bit in those moments. 

How many opportunities have I missed simply because I refused to be paused by my Father? How many joy-filled, wonder-full moments have I let slip away because I was too busy with my "stuff" to look up and see what God was showing me?

 I want my family, my friends, complete strangers to know that they are more important than my day's to-do list. I want my Lord to know that I have eyes wide open for His hand in my life. That I am ready and willing to pause and redirect for His glory.

Whatever form they come in, I want to accept with grace the staccato moments, the pauses that undoubtedly will come into my midst. May you too find peace in the midst of your interruptions today...and may you see them as beautiful pauses, gifts from a loving Father.