Disclaimer

What I am pouring out here is only what I'm working on. 

These are the ways that God is working on my heart.

These are the stirrings in my soul that I refuse to ignore.

I could chose to show only my "best side" here. 
My "I've-got-it-all-together-check-it-out-I'm-blogging-doing-my-Bible-study-and-chugging-water" self.

I have not perfected anything.

 (Not marriage, not parenting, not friendship/home school/

home making...nothing.)

Probably because I am a far cry from perfect.

But, in reality...I'm eating mini Oreos on the side. 
(And there is a mess I've tucked out of sight behind the computer.)

I have a sink full of dirty dishes I'm ignoring while I write this.

I had several "pauses" during my intended quiet writing (kids supposed to be resting) time in the form of a sweet but loud baby, a big girl showing me how she beat a hard level on her game, and a brother being generally goofy.

I am just like you in more ways than not.

I am a bit of a beautiful mess.

I am a simple, sin-rescued-but-still-sin-enticed woman.

Satan wants to mess me up. He wants to see me fall flat and feel too shamed to lift my head and try again. (You too, actually.) I refuse to let him have a foothold in my life. But it takes vigilance...relying on My Father's strength time and again.

This place is where I am choosing to honor my Lord with giving words to what He is burdening my heart with.

God is constantly challenging my thoughts, urging me to walk closer to Him. 

He has placed a desire in me to use my life, my ups and downs to encourage others. Even if one person...one time...hears a bit of God's heart in this place...if one person senses that God just might be talking to them...then all praise to God! 

I pray that as I wrestle with what I am in the midst of, you might be encouraged in your walk too. Not because I have it all together and am encouraging you from a place of perfection...but just the opposite. I am working through my faith, experiencing very real growing pains along the way. Perhaps you feel the same. May you listen closely to the whispers of The Savior.